The War

“On his first day in office,” I said, “…Jimmy Carter pardoned draft dodgers,” and that Mark need not fear military incarceration if he went home to North Carolina.  He “could go back any time,” I said, adding sarcastically, “preferably right now!”

Of course, I really didn’t mean it, as Mark was a good friend of the shop, and one of its primary suppliers of second-hand books, tapes, and compact discs.  He could also be a source of irritation, never being satisfied with the amount of money I offered in return.  Light-hearted, yet intense negotiations would follow, and he would regale me with stories of the authors, as though knowing what an author did before writing a certain book would somehow influence how much I paid for it.

Mark was very clever, always surprising me with the literature he was able to get his hands on, whether it was a trade-sized Michel Foucault’s Madness and Civilization, Jane Jacobs’ Death and Life of American Cities, or the Starfleet Technical Manual.  He once told me that the books he offered to a store (mine was not the only one) was contingent upon how much they paid for books. Hoping to encourage him to bring his better stuff, I would pay more, and often got first dibs on some of his finer offerings.

His father was a decorated World War II veteran, still living in North Carolina.  He had never forgiven Mark for dodging the draft.  When he received his order to present himself for a medical examination in 1970, he wasted no time, making his way instead to Montreal by thumbing rides and Greyhound bus.  He made fast friends with like-minded university students, crashing on their couches, and occasionally auditing courses that interested him.

He worked his way across the country, eventually settling on my city.  Initially he made a living selling records, tapes and books; later his trade would expand to include DVDs and CDs.  All of these, he would procure at church fundraisers, garage and estate sales, and thrift shops.  His main source of transportation, aside from transit, were his feet, and there was never a time I did not see him without a shopping bag in each hand containing that day’s booty.  Slight of body, he had the look of a man that was in need of a good meal.  He was almost always wearing the same fawn coloured autumn jacket and matching sport pants – the kind with a stripe down the side.  He wore his blonde hair long, tied back in a pony-tail, and had a stately, well-developed beard.

Sitting with me at the bookstore’s coffee bar, I’d ply him with long espressos and he would divulge all the stories he knew of rock stars from the 50′s, 60′s and 70′s.  A veritable walking encyclopedia of everything you wanted to know -  the guitar Jimmy Page was using in concert in Chicago on a certain year, or who Grace Slick was dating while still married to Jerry.  If you wanted to know who influenced Jimi Hendrix, or where Pete Townshend was standing the day John Lennon was shot… Mark was your man.

Though he travelled many places, and had met many people along the way, he seemed to me to be a bit of a loner; and as he had politely refused my many invitations to concerts and poetry readings, I came to see that he socialized through his work.  I felt a kinship with him, though we were at different stages in our lives.  We both hovered at the poverty line.  For him the Vietnam war had never ended, and I thought of him as a grizzled survivor, living with the dodging of the draft, and his disapproving father.  I recently realized that, at that time, he was roughly the same age I am now.

Top photo: Rep. Alexander Pirnie, R-NY, draws the first capsule in the draft lottery drawing held on Dec. 01/1969.  The capsule contained the date, Sept. 14th

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Five Minutes – part one

It was a dreadful ride up in the elevator, and my heart sank when I opened the large wooden door to the office.  Making my way over to the counter, I greeted the executive assistant, giving her my name.  After checking the itinerary, she offered me a seat where I was afforded plenty of time to review the polished granite flooring, black leather over-stuffed chairs, and cherry-wood panelling on the walls.  This was where serious business transactions took place and I, truth be told, was out of my element.  My eyes grazed across the titles of the magazine selection on the table beside me: Report On Business, Forbes, Canadian Business, MoneySense.  Perhaps the other side of the lobby had a magazine more suitable for me: Roam on $5/day, or Homesteading Magazine.

Contacting the regional credit counselling service had been a first step on what I’d hoped could be the road to recovery, with an accountant whose keen skills could help dig me out of the hole I now rested at the bottom of.  Not that I was entirely convinced the shop could be pulled out of its nose-dive after the nearly 30 percent lease increase.  They had matched me with the firm whose lobby I now solely occupied.  About ten minutes after my arrival I was directed by the assistant to proceed to the office, and was assured I would not be waiting much longer.  The door closed and I was left sitting in silence.

It had been an exhausting 10 months since the renewal of my lease agreement. Sales were down simply because I could no longer afford to buy books in the same quantity.  The rent increase virtually eliminated my salary, and collection agencies were calling me 2 or 3 times a day.  My ex-girlfriend, who had also been my business partner was being telephoned overseas in the middle of the night with the same frequency.

Bill, as he introduced himself, came into the office, shook my hand vigorously and apologized for being tardy.  He wore a conservative pin-striped suit and was middle-aged, sporting a pinky ring and a Tom Selleck moustache.  He didn’t waste any time getting down to business - he seemed to be rushing through the meeting as though he had a dogfight to attend.  Worriedly, I watched as he tapped a few digits out on his calculator.  He then looked over other documents I had been requested to provide him with – business statements, remunerations and income tax information from the previous year.  More tapping on the calculator.  Looking up over his reading glasses he said, “Yep, you’re bankrupt,” and then arranged my documents in a file folder. I started to feel sick, things were happening too fast.

The room felt suddenly cold.  What hope I’d mustered of resurrecting the store drained away, like the last bit of water in the sink.  I had convinced myself I would be introduced to a person who could help me set the store straight. Having been in business for 10 years gives one a certain sense of leverage, I thought to myself.  I had heard that you could make a consumer proposal to your creditors, fixing your interest rates at a workable 5%.  Instead, I sat across from a man who offered no other solution than the dissolution of my business.

Bill advised me that I should keep the store open to the end of the month, a mere 3 days away, and to remove any personal effects and files from the premises.  He made a date for a follow-up meeting, a week after this “initial consultation”.  Bewildered, I shook his hand as I rose to my feet.  I was being shown the door, and I thanked him for his help, the way you do when you thank a police officer for giving you a speeding ticket.

My mind was blank and filled with mixed emotions as I made my way to the elevator, back down to the ground floor.  I unlocked the door of my VW van and for several minutes sat staring at the dash, feeling like a man without a country.

4 days later, at 3:38 a.m., alone and sitting on a milk-crate at at the back of the store, I broke down.

More days later I was back in that same office, being attended to by Bill, for our second and what would be our final meeting.  In the meantime,he had made some initial inquiries and had started the bankruptcy process on my behalf.  He had dozens of documents for me to sign in triplicate; my hand got sore from signing my name over my new title: “signature of bankrupt”.  Bill went on to warn me there may be an inquiry as to how I let my liabilities get so far out of whack from my assets.  He also suggested that  I, “should have come sooner…”.

I went home with a black hole in my stomach.  There I was, 35, at an age when I should have been at the top of my game, with nothing.

Post-script:

Through the media we learn that bankruptcy is a fate worse than death for business people.  Banks treat people who have gone bankrupt like criminals and simply refuse to open accounts for a person who is going through or has passed through the process.  I was told by my trustee that I would have no problem obtaining a chequing account, and that it was just a question of asking for one.  Not so, as I actually had several account managers from different banks actually turn their back on me, when I needed an account for a job I had.  Only with my parents intervention did I manage procure one, as it was required for automatic deposit.  I was fortunate, yet many are not afforded the same opportunity.

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Coconut Ginger Butternut Squash Soup – Vegan

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from the Redfish Grill, Nelson BC

Saute carrots, onions and celery – reduce
Add roasted butternut squash* see below for directions
Add vegetable stock and a bit of flour – mix in
Add coconut milk and a bit of water
Add ginger and sweet chili sauce
Pinch of cinnamon

Simmer.
Hand blend or use a blender until smooth.

This is the way the chef at the restaurant called out the recipe for Anine.  I use 2 or 3 medium-sized carrots, 1 onion, 3 stalks of celery, and 3 to 4 cups of vegetable stock.  The squash should be smaller than your head, but if it isn’t, simply adjust the amounts of the other ingredients accordingly.  I also use a whole can of coconut milk (14 oz or 400ml), about a teaspoon of fresh ginger and 1/3 cup (about 83ml) of sweet chili sauce.

*Cut in half lengthwise, placing cut-side down on a cookie sheet — bake for 30 minutes at 350F (177C) or until soft enough to scoop out.

Nota Bene:  Sadly, on July 30th/2010, the building that housed the Redfish Grill was destroyed by fire.  Great memories of wonderful food and live music.

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Vegan Chocolate Mousse

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This is sooooooooo good!              

12 oz Organic Silken Tofu
10 oz Organic Chocolate Chips
3 Tbsp. Maple Syrup
1 Tsp. Organic Vanilla Extract

Blend tofu until smooth.  In a double boiler, melt chocolate chips with a tablespoon or two of water over low heat, stirring constantly.  Add the maple syrup and vanilla to the melted chocolate and combine.  Mix with tofu until creamy.  Pour into small dishes or glasses, covering them with saran wrap (we now use a reusable hemp/cotton fabric “infused with a blend of beeswax and plant extracts” from ABEEGO –  It’s awesome stuff).  Put in fridge for at least 30 minutes.  Enjoy!

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George Orwell’s Essay – Bookshop Memories

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I got a kick out of reading this, and thought I should share it with you… sounds so contemporary, save for the lack of sucker-sticks jammed between books, misogynists, angry Serbians and cross-dressing bank robbers…
-special thanks to Loralee at the Lethbridge Guerilla Gardening Blog!

“When I worked in a second-hand bookshop–so easily pictured, if you don’t work in one, as a kind of paradise where charming old gentlemen browse eternally among calf-bound folios–the thing that chiefly struck me was the rarity of really bookish people. Our shop had an exceptionally interesting stock, yet I doubt whether ten per cent of our customers knew a good book from a bad one. First edition snobs were much commoner than lovers of literature, but oriental students haggling over cheap textbooks were commoner still, and vague-minded women looking for birthday presents for their nephews were commonest of all.

Many of the people who came to us were of the kind who would be a
nuisance anywhere but have special opportunities in a bookshop. For
example, the dear old lady who ‘wants a book for an invalid’ (a very
common demand, that), and the other dear old lady who read such a nice
book in 1897 and wonders whether you can find her a copy. Unfortunately
she doesn’t remember the title or the author’s name or what the book was
about, but she does remember that it had a red cover. But apart from
these there are two well-known types of pest by whom every second-hand
bookshop is haunted. One is the decayed person smelling of old
breadcrusts who comes every day, sometimes several times a day, and tries
to sell you worthless books. The other is the person who orders large
quantities of books for which he has not the smallest intention of
paying. In our shop we sold nothing on credit, but we would put books
aside, or order them if necessary, for people who arranged to fetch them
away later. Scarcely half the people who ordered books from us ever came
back. It used to puzzle me at first. What made them do it? They would
come in and demand some rare and expensive book, would make us promise
over and over again to keep it for them, and then would vanish never to
return. But many of them, of course, were unmistakable paranoiacs. They
used to talk in a grandiose manner about themselves and tell the most
ingenious stories to explain how they had happened to come out of doors
without any money–stories which, in many cases, I am sure they
themselves believed. In a town like London there are always plenty of not
quite certifiable lunatics walking the streets, and they tend to
gravitate towards bookshops, because a bookshop is one of the few places
where you can hang about for a long time without spending any money. In
the end one gets to know these people almost at a glance. For all their
big talk there is something moth-eaten and aimless about them. Very
often, when we were dealing with an obvious paranoiac, we would put aside
the books he asked for and then put them back on the shelves the moment
he had gone. None of them, I noticed, ever attempted to take books away
without paying for them; merely to order them was enough–it gave them,
I suppose, the illusion that they were spending real money.

Like most second-hand bookshops we had various sidelines…

you can read the rest of George Orwell’s essay HERE

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The Politics Of Friendship

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“So, you’re selling out.  You’re buying in to a system that you’ve fought against for the last ten years.  You’re… defeated…” he said.  ”Is that statement designed to make me feel better?” I asked angrily.

We sat together, he and I, for the last time.  He took one final draft of his latte, tipping the cup all the way back before setting it down on the counter.  I refused to make eye contact with him, and there was now only silence between us.  He pushed back the stool he was sitting on, its metal legs shuddering against the tile floor as it moved away from the coffee bar.  Turning, he rose to his feet and, as I looked up, he walked out the door, and out of my life.

Michael was an intelligent, affable and educated 27 year-old fellow.  A life-long student and the son of a corporate executive, he was well on his way to a master’s degree in psychology.  His long brown hair tied back into a ponytail, he resembled a bearded Matthew McConaughey.  He was married to Danica, a homeopathic practitioner, and together they had two small children, a boy and a girl.

He had started hanging around the bookstore between or after classes, engaging me at first with small talk and later, when he got to know me, long conversations over coffee.  I welcomed his companionship, as our talks were interesting, dynamic and animated.  I appreciated the similarities of our world views, and looked forward to our meetings.  Philosophy, the Arts, politics, deep ecology, no topic was barred, and often customers and friends were included in the discourse.

I valued the time I spent with him, and we started meeting casually outside the store at a cafe nearby that offered great middle-eastern cuisine.  We became close friends, or so I thought at the time.  I’m not sure whether I offered him the job, or if he suggested that he work part-time.  In any case, I knew his erudition and friendly demeanor were just the ticket, and I had a renewed sense of optimism for the future.  It also gave me a chance to relax a bit, knowing there was someone I trusted looking after things in the shop.

He and his family fully enjoyed the regular community poetry readings and musical events.  He opened up new lines of communication with clients, developed relationships with performers, and helped with set-up and take-down.  During one performance, he and his daughter danced to the music of a very appreciative folk singer, charming the audience with their fluid movements.

He did have some trouble with the cash register, regularly making accounting errors that were easy enough to fix.  He’d leave me notes on bits of till tape or sheets of paper, outlining the circumstances around a mistake, saying: “Chris:  I charged someone a $7000.00 for a book…” adding cheekily, “I don’t know if that was done right.”  As I was paying him cash under the table at the time, he would go on to further admit: “I took $13.50 out of the till on friday for lunch.”

Startling admissions to his wife over the telephone would spark misunderstandings between them, leading to a debate and ensuingly a discussion over semantics.  I extrapolated later that these disagreements often stemmed from his honesty, and his propensity to find himself in compromising situations with women.  In one instance, after having coffee with an acquaintance, he went with her to her apartment. Somehow she managed to get him in the shower, but he was clear in stating to me that he was still fully clothed when this occurred.  I struggled with the notion of his predicament, and had trouble feeling sorry for him when Danica found out.

On another occasion, he told me of a chance encounter he had with a woman in a cafe.  She approached him while he was paying for his latte, stating how attractive he was,  how much he resembled Matthew McConaughey, and that she wanted to make love to him immediately.  His stories were entertaining, but always understated, and never boastful.

At one point, circumstances in his family life were changing and I was afforded the opportunity to buy his 1979 VW Westfalia.  It was the missing piece of the puzzle for my life and the bookstore.  Nothing embodied my lifestyle better than an unreliable accordion on wheels, or “flying shingle”, as my Dad called it.

One day, a housemate of mine, Paul, came home cheerfully announcing that he had procured a chunk of hash, and that he and his friend were going downstairs to bake brownies.  Hours later, with the house smelling of fresh baked goods, he emerged from the basement suite clutching two baking dishes, one for Lance, our other housemate, and the other for me. I initially refused this generous offer, however, on his insistence, I relented and promised I would find a good home for it. It turned out Michael’s home was not the the best place, as their little boy managed to spot it at the back of the fridge where Michael had hidden the package.  He came bounding into the room, his face covered in chocolate icing, shouting excitedly “Mommy, mommy, I found cake in the fridge!” adding, “Can I have some?”

I figured out much later that, at the time of our parting and the store closure, Michael was losing something too.  My folks thought he was losing his hangout; my wife recently suggested it was possible that Michael had actually never been my friend, but a friend of the store’s.

His little boy was just fine the next day.

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Hemp Peanut Butter Cookies – not vegan

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Preheat oven to 350 F

In a medium-sized mixing bowl combine all the following:

1 Cup Shelled Hemp Seeds
1/4 Cup Organic Cane Sugar
2 – Organic Eggs
1 Cup Organic Peanut Butter (the stuff you have to blend the oil back in to)
1/2 Teaspoon Baking Soda
1/4 Cup Organic Chocolate Chips

Spoon out ping-pong ball sized amounts of the mixture on to a lightly greased baking pan.  Taking a fork dipped in water press down to flatten the cookies.  Bake for 10 – 15 minutes.  Yum… just sayin’.  I’m also thinking of trying these with maybe 1/2 cup of whole hemp seed for an extra crunch.

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